I dont know how long it has been since i last studied or since i tried to work towards my goals. I go to school, come back home, sleep all afternoon, stay up late... go to class late..and repeat the pattern o(β₯οΉβ₯)o
There are two things that have led me to this point. (β―οΈ΅β°,)
First being ..just hanging out with my friends trying to avoid my actual work. Going to college not to attend lectures but to meet my friends. I cant get too comfortable or else my dreams will forever remain dreams.ΰ²₯_ΰ²₯ I actually need to work.The second thing is doing stuff thats way too advanced for me and feeling lost and overwhelmed.(βοΉββΏ) Tell me why i trying to understand phd research papers on collision in computer graphics when i didnt even know to program simple triangle or even create a simple graphics window. \(-γ
-)/ β₯ β₯ β₯ I did learn a lot tho i cant deny that. However i need to start small and be consistent with my work instead of few weeks of trying to code music in python, learning all kinds of irrelevant stuff, feeling like a loser then starting over in something else , something that i am not able to manage.
Yesterday i had to work on my ad making competition. Couldve taking a few clips on my own, edited it quickly and submitted my work. But no, i had to follow my friends all around wasting time.(β‘οΉβ‘βΏ)
My college doesnt really care about education so the environment that i am in doesnt help at all
ill try doing what ive decided for next week and if that doesnt work i'll have to do something else. Something thats more permanent, i guess.
Things ive decided to change for the following week:
β’ i plan to work on simple projects and video journal! π
β’learn whatever my syllabus in much more depth. β¨π
β’ go to college only to attend lecturesπΈ
β’ use free time in college productively π
Basically in one simple sentence, I need to channel my inner Rory Gilmore.\(-γ
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